Married to her husband for more than a month,The story of a Khmer woman

Married to her husband for more than a month, I have not yet known the flavors that my husband had handed over to me, like the general girl, who always got such taste like the night of the day. This irregularity I have not been able to tell my parents to know yet, I think I will find the cause of this problem myself and then remember this to tell them later.

But I was thinking to myself, why my husband is indolent to me in sleep is possible because he has a girlfriend, loving dedication already be married to the attention of both mature forced otherwise only my husband was gay, but the final reason this is impossible, because my husband is a man Who is physically robust and handsome bezels are real pros. One night, my husband came from a friend's friend with his friend, because he was drunk soft and soft. It was a good night that I decided to check out his shameful things to see if he was right. Thinking like this, and I also put your clothes away just a beautiful body baring cutie with big muscles, especially the abdominal muscles, six-wheel if women saw and fell instantly fall in love with stony faces, but what brings me down and pulled my husband's decline is not equal to the men who are united is a bad Leone or reputation ashamed of my husband's small hands as a child under the age of five years old then.

I am very disappointed after I learned the true story of my husband and found out why he has not touched me since my marriage until now. I do not dare to raise this story to talk to anyone, even with my parents, because I feel it is the most shameful thing to do when I am a woman to raise this story.

One day I took this story to my husband and me straight from the start, first I asked him why he refused to have sex with me. Because I thought he was hiding it with me, it was not so, he recounted his secrets to me and even told me that he could not have a child this time.

It was an answer that emerged from my husband's heart, accompanied by a drop of tears, which pushed my heart to shake, to tears when he said he did not want to be born like this, but did not know what was wrong with him and he apologized to me. He did not want to marry me, but he respected the wishes of his parents, plus the temperament he had on me, which led to this marriage because he had refused to marry many other women.

My husband also confirmed that he also had a look at me, but he did not have enough courage to do this because of shame, especially worried about it, and I was disappointed with him, he was able to break up with him, while he was growing in love with me, he was just asleep, tear-up, Only he, but now he is explicit, and he gives me the right to decide whether I should live with him forever or I have to leave?

What should I do about this? Between pity and self-esteem, if I live with him, which one should I choose?